Last week was a real challenge, but I made it through relatively okay. Losing my dear infant grandson at 8 1/2 months of age was devastating, the only peace that I have from this is knowing that he is in the presence of Jesus. Our family is broken by this loss and it will take time to recover. I’m praying continually for his mother, father and sisters that they pull together through this and not implode. They each need to grieve in their own time and their own way and with the help of the Comforter, the Holy Spirit. My prayer is that Loralee and Philip draw near to Jesus and search the Word to find the truth that will heal their wounds. The girls need a lot of love to manage the loss of their baby brother; I grieve that I’m unable to be there, but it apparently was not in God’s plan…I need to get settled in my new position at Remington College.
Today was the first day of classes and it was crazy busy, met a lot of the students and I wish that I could remember all of their names! There are some great students there and they are trying to better themselves and I want to do whatever I can to help them reach their goals, which ultimately, I hope, is further than what they have at Remington. To me, Remington is a foundation for their educational futures. I want to encourage them to DREAM BIG for themselves, some of these students are facing huge challenges, but I know that they can persevere through them…I did and so can they! I’m really excited about my role in the school even though I don’t feel much support from certain people that I report to. Somehow, I hope that I can influence them to change their view of the library and it’s role in the student’s lives. I have a long way to go…but I’ll get there!
I’m realizing that my new schedule Monday through Thursday from 8 am to 7 pm is difficult, but I have to figure out how to get enough rest, eat appropriately, and eventually, when Bobby gets home, make sure that he’s eating right and taking his meds correctly. I’ll get there, but I’m not there yet! It’s only my fourth day at the new job…still in the learning curve!

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 It is May 15th, 2013, and I’m re-reading this post, I had no idea what was to come…that Bobby would be leaving me permanently. Somehow, I wish I could have known what was ahead…I would have cherished each moment so much more. There are so many things in my heart that I wanted him to know about, I just didn’t think I needed to tell him yet…I miss him in every way and very deeply. He was really my everything. Jesus has something for me to do, somewhere down the road from where I am now.